“He went up on a mountainside by Himself to pray.
When evening came, He was there alone.”
(Matthew 14:23)
I sometimes wonder how many words I gloss over when I’m reading Scripture.
How many precious gems do I overlook, because to my untrained (and often insensitive or hurried or sin-blinded) eyes, they just don’t seem very important?
They fade into the background, seeming to lack significance.
This is one of those verses with a lot of small words that are easy to neglect. But it is overflowing with truths for me – and perhaps, for you.
Spending Time With God
“He went up on a mountainside…to pray.”
Lesson #1: Be intentional.
When Jesus was on this earth, He was intentional about spending time with His Father.
I’m not sure why He chose a mountain. Did the majestic view of His creation (John 1:1,3) remind Him of their time together? In His very human flesh, did He feel just a little closer to God up there? Was the remote location simply the only place He could be alone?
It’s interesting to speculate on His choice, but the most important detail is that He made a choice.
A choice that reflected that this relationship was without doubt His utmost priority…
the delight of His heart…
the apple of His eye.
Can you imagine what it was like for Jesus, God made flesh, when He was here?
When I consider how much He surely missed His Father, I have a hard time believing that spending time with God was something Jesus had to discipline Himself to do.
It wasn’t something for which He mustered the willpower.
It wasn’t written on His “to-do list” every day, waiting for the moment when it was happily checked off the list.
I have a feeling it was what He longed for.
I think it was probably what He wanted to be doing all the time.
And then, try to imagine how difficult it would be to minister to a bunch of messed up sinners – no, more than that. Belligerent, rebellious enemies of God is more like it.
And knowing that Your entire purpose in even being here was to die for them.
And to know exactly how every detail of that death would play out.
And at whose hands.
And that even those who called themselves your friends would betray you and deny you – and that all but one would run and hide at the moment of truth.
And knowing all that, having to minister, serve, heal, touch, teach, love the very ones who would utterly forsake you in your hour of greatest grief.
Jesus was completely omnipotent as God made flesh, but I can’t help but believe that Jesus’ time with His Father was somehow a source from which He derived emotional strength for His ministry. Perhaps He even craved some reminders of why He came and of Who He was. Not that He ever forgot these things – but sometimes, as humans, isn’t it nice to be reminded?
“…by Himself…”
Lesson #2: Be alone.
Jesus sought solitude to be alone with His Father.
This beautiful paradox is one of the sublime joys of the Christian life: alone, but never alone.
When I physically remove myself from other tasks or relationships for a while, taking time alone to be with the Creator of the universe and the Lover of my soul, it pours Living Water into my parched heart – water which bubbles up until it overflows onto every other thing and every other person in my life.
I need to be alone with my God. But being alone requires effort. Particularly in these days of smart phones and social media and second-by-second updates.
And in my days as Mom to many, being alone is a state I must seek diligently.
I must guard it carefully.
And sometimes I must fight for it ruthlessly.
I must fight my laziness that keeps me in bed longer than I truly need. Fight my obsession with the latest online feed or update or status. Fight my apathy that keeps me from caring enough to make the effort to be alone with God.
But when that fight is won, it’s always, always worth it.
“When evening came, He was there alone.”
Lesson #3: Be consumed.
Humanly speaking, when evening comes, I’m ready to eat dinner. Or I’m preparing for bed. I’m taking care of my body’s needs. But when Jesus went on that mountain to pray, the wording of the verse almost seems to indicate that He lost track of time.
He was so wrapped up in communing with His Father, time just stopped mattering.
The needs of His very human body – which certainly experienced hunger, fatigue, pain, and thirst – were bypassed, giving preference to the need of His soul to commune with His Father.
When is the last time I experienced this? When I’m spending time with my precious Lord, does time cease to exist?
Do I get so wrapped up in my time with Him that before I know it, solitude is over and service is beckoning, and I can’t help but be just a little disappointed, because like the very best of friends, there was more I wanted to tell Him and more I wanted to hear from Him?
Sweet Jesus, please give me a heart like Yours, which intentionally sought time alone with our Father. Which drew strength on the mountain for Your time in the trenches, reveling in that relationship to the point that the hands of time seemed to just…
stand…
still.
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Tiffany Clark says
This was truly beautiful, Jennifer. I love how you took the time to enter into Jesus’ experience of being fully human and relating to God; I think you really “get” Him. In my experience, it is because of the struggles of the trenches that we feel that desperate need to escape to the mountain of God. In a way, the muck of life and ministry in this world is precisely the “launch pad” that makes me crave time alone in the beauty of my Father’s presence. Jesus certainly experienced His fair share of both, and now we get the privilege of walking a mile in His shoes.
Jennifer says
Thank you for sharing, Tiffany. I grappled with some aspects of this post, making every effort to ensure that I wasn’t being careless as I pondered our Savior’s humanity. I so agree with your conclusions about the trenches…I love how you describe our time there as a “launch pad” toward the mountaintop! That has been my experience, as well. And a precious one, indeed, as this realization is one that has helped me to find great joy in times of trial.
Sara says
Hi Jennifer, what a lovely post. Being intentional about spending time with God is something I’ve struggled with. It’s so easy to get wrapped up in being busy and constantly doing things that I forget the importance of being still and alone with God.
Thanks for your post and the truth you have in it!
Jennifer Clarke says
Hi, Sara, and welcome! I’m glad this post touched your heart. I identify with the struggle you expressed! But when we make time for the Lord, He has a way of making it the sweetest part of the day, doesn’t He?
DeeDee says
Thank you so much for sharing this. It truly ministered to my heart!
Jennifer Clarke says
It’s a message I need often, DeeDee. Thank you for letting me know how it blessed you!
Joy says
Oh…this was beautiful, and it really ministered to me at this very moment when I needed this reminder!!! THANK YOU!
Jennifer Clarke says
I’m so glad this ministered to your heart, Joy. Thank you for taking the time to let me know!
Mónica says
Truly touchy. May your voice ressonate in our pray time.
Thank you
Jessica says
This may sound crazy, but I am so hung up on this for some reason…I’m hoping you can help.
I know the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit are each God, the 3 in 1. But, in the Bible, we are told to pray to the Father through the Son, and then by the power of the Holy Spirit.
So, this is what I’m having a hard time with…what is our relationship to be with each, the Father, Son and Holy Spirit? What should I be striving for each day? And, WHY am I so hung up on this???
Ok… I’m really not expecting an answer to that last question. Evaluating my brain and the way it operates is something I really would wish on anyone. (Lol) But, if you could answer the other 2, that would be AMAZING! 🙂
Jennifer Clarke says
Hi, Jessica! Thank you for reading, and for posing such a thoughtful question. Honestly, the Trinity is something I still don’t fully understand; but I also don’t think any of us fully understand it because it’s one of those truths that surpasses our human comprehension. Which can be frustrating sometimes for deep thinkers like you and me; on the other hand, a god would could fully understand wouldn’t be worthy of our worship, would he? 🙂
I did find this article and this one, from two resources that are very biblical and trustworthy. I think they do a good job addressing your question. In summary, each Member of the Trinity has a different role: God the Father is our Dad, God the Son is our Savior, and God the Holy Spirit is our Helper. I would encourage you to simply focus on drawing close to God, without splitting hairs too much about which Person. He is One God, after all.
Keep thinking deeply, but don’t let your ponderings or questions distract you from what’s most important: divine relationship and faithful stewardship. I think God likes it when we think about and wonder about Him, but on some topics there comes a time when we have to accept that we’ll never fully understand. And that’s ok! 🙂 Thanks again for reading!